My mom brought me pinkish red fluffy slippers with black hearts inside. Finally she has understood also that I am a princess.

Walking On Air by Kerli

There's a little creepy house
In a little creepy place
Little creepy town
In a little creepy world
Little creepy girl
With her little creepy face
Saying funny things that you have never heard

Do you know what it's all about
Are you brave enough to figure out
Know that you could set your world on fire
If you are strong enough to leave your doubts

Feel it. Breathe it. Believe it.
And you'll be walking on air.
Go try. Go fly. So high
And you'll be walking on air
You feel this unless you kill this
Go on and you're forgiven
I knew that
I could feel that
I feel like
I am walking on air

She has a little creepy cat
And a little creepy bat
Little rocking chair and an old blue hat
That little creepy girl. Oh she loves to sing.
She has a little gift - An amazing thing
With her little funny eyes of hazel
With her little funny old blue hat
She will go and set the world on fire
No one ever thought she could do that

Feel it. Breathe it. Believe it.
And you'll be walking on air.
Go try. Go fly. So high
And you'll be walking on air
You feel this unless you kill this
Go on and you're forgiven
I knew that
I could feel that
I feel like
I am walking on air

Flitter up
and Hover down
Be all around
Be all around

You know that I love you, go on...

Feel it. Breathe it. Believe it.
And you'll be walking on air.
Go try. Go fly. So high
And you'll be walking on air
You feel this unless you kill this
Go on and you're forgiven
I knew that
I could feel that
I feel like
I am walking on air

I am walking on air...

I'm Free

Don't grieve for me for now I'm free,
I'm following the path God laid for me.
I took his hand when I heard him call,
I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day
To laugh, to love, to work or play.
Tasks left undone will stay that way,
I found that peace at close of day.
If my parting has left a void
Then fill it with remembered joy
A friendship shared, a laugh a kiss,
Ah yes, these things I, too, will miss.
But not burdened with times of sorrow,
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My life has been full, I've savored much.
Good friends, good times, a loved ones touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all to brief
Don't lengthen it now with undue grief,
Lift up you hearts and share with me,
God wanted me now,
He set me free.

~~Author Unknown

Do not stand at my grave and weep.

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

~~Mary Frye

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Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am the song that will never end.
I am the love of family and friend.
I am the child who has come to rest
In the arms of the Father who knows him best.

When you see the sunset fair,
I am the scented evening air.
I am the joy of a task well done.
I am the glow of the setting sun.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
(Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die!

~~Wilbur Skeels (1996)

About love

Love is something what will be there when being in love is gone. Love is like roots of trees and when crush has passed we may see are the roots related to not fall apart. Thats not love when you lay on your bed at nights and dream about how he covers your body with kisses. That's not love what makes you crazy when you are in his embrace what makes your body give off waves of heat or makes have your heart in your mouth. Love is what will stay after flames of crush. When the fire have burned down then all what will be there is gray everyday. And if you feel that in that gray existing you still want to be with your beloved one, you still want to make food to him or clean up his loundry, then that's the love. Nothing very beautiful, nothing so sublimate...

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- When I was deaf, life was beautiful. I didn't hear how my wife was nagging with me. Now is my life as hell. Put the pea back into my ear. I want to be deaf again.
- Do you love your wife? If you do love your wife then be nice with her. Bring firewood inside before she asks. When she feels cold, put a blanket on her shoulders. When you are on the field then biring a flower to her every time you come from there...
- Does it mean that you won't put the pea back into my ear?

Bio: You look so beutiful with your long hair.
Me: Would you marry me when I would have no long hair?
Bio: You want me to propose you?
Me: I am just according your words when you said that 2 old lonely ppl suit for eachother well...
Bio: Dear, you have beautiful big heart what means more than whole beauty of models in the World.
Me: Good. Then you don't mind that I did cut off my hair...

Madis

Who the heck is Madis?

23, married, sweet... Someone who was very special for me. He was someone I could talk whole night along because we had something to talk about. Our talks were opened and full of laugh. I did read even a book for him! About Harry Potter :) He is second person in my life I have ever read a book... It was fun to spend time with him, hang around, discuss over issues we met. I did really cared of him a lot.

I called him as a friend...

And friends should forgive other of them has made a mistake. It is why the friends are for! They should care more than to the first mistake. People are doing mistakes. They are humans. So are freinds!

... why is it so hard then? :) I knew once a guy who told that love means growing. That you have to work for love to grow. That you have to talk to the one you love and share what do you feel... He teached me all of that. And I did learn it. I know all of it now and I try to follow of it... I did try to teach to the guy that forgiving is really important as well because humans do mistakes... he never learnt it. He could not forgive me. He could not forgive to himself as well. And do be honest I know it is so damned hard. I need to learn to forgive. Not easy wrongs but the big failngs. But it is so hard when someone spits in your face...

Actually I am really dissapointed and I can't over of it. I did expalin to him what I feel and why but even if he will understands all of it and regrets, then do I ... Oh yes, I can do that! I have to. Even if it is only because to believe it is possible to forgive. I did cross a line as well. I feel really sorry that it got him in trouble at home but I am not sorry for his wife... She just needs someone who would tell to her to grow up already. I know it was not my business but... but she is a real butt ;)

I do add my letters to Madis where I did appologise because of getting him trouble and hurting him with that.

:) I got a bit time to come here.











































I have no idea what should I write... :o