There we go…

I have so many times to think to blog again but…

…I haven’t have time for that. All those evenings to walk trough my home town back home from work the same streets, same walking paths, same trees, same houses. Even same thoughts on some places. There have been so many different days what I have enjoyed but still have had some similar thoughts in same spots on may way back home or from home to work or college. There is the the oak alley on my way. Every fall when the oaks drop their leaves and tiny acorns I feel there walking or cycling as a faith. Like all those tiny acorns what have falling, lying, rolling on the street are like people on they way in the world and my bicycle wheels or boots are like faith what hits random acorns disturbing their line of flight. Changing their way, their plans, their life with smashing or changing their direction.

When the oak alley goes over to maple alley I see in front of my eyes the maple near my home. It’s the only red maple I have seen on my ways in the town. Or at least the only one I do remember. And that thought pops into my mind only because the maples on the maple alley are all yellow when fall arrives.

Yeah… so many times I have thought on blogging all the thoughts about the way. But now first time during the 4 years I finally have sat down and wrote about them. Probably only because I just discovered Windows’ blogging program on my laptop and wanted to try how does it work.

ROFL

Since the new year in college has started and lots of homeworks are needed to do I was just googling information for one of my subject and was reading and reading and all that estonina was like chinese! I did check the page address and it was in english and it made a jingle to ding in my head while I was reading on. And then one bright moment during failure to understand my own mothertongue on the website I did realized that the page was automaticly translated into estonian by some very bad web translator :P

Mwhahaaa... it was sooooo funny that I did continue reading. The biggest fail to maketranslator what translates things to estonian :P

PHAIL!!!!!!!!!!

Big Fail

You and I Both – Jason Mraz Music Code

I am in clinic. At practice by college.

That means I had to prepear for the worse... I can't sleep!

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I bought mp3 player and did download lots of music on it.

I bought also some apples and new lemonade (Alles klaar? - Ja-ja..) "Valge Klaar". Im the victim if the TV adds... I know, I know.

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Took some blood, set up some TOCOs, did measure some blood pressures, and made an Penicillin's injection before I got some time to play with my new toy... Seemed just couple buttons but ohh... recorder, music, settings... hmm.. ooh music settings, rec settings, common settings, initializing, format, ... oh no! oh crap! cantbetruedangbackbackfakkstupidmoronnoooooooooowaaaaaay!

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Great.. whole long night and no music even.... do I really have to start studing? :o

Weight loss

Since I have finally understood the iportance of weigh loss then now I have to find a way to do it. Diet - most women know the meaning of it, thousands different ways to keep it and that the results are mostly a sweet roundy zero. You will lose a kilo and 2 will be back soon.

So... I need to get there trough clear mind, calculations and lots of help from outside. (I did call to my G.P. and will see her on this friday at 1 PM.)

Big Fat Cat

That's it.

Somehow it have been so that I have never been problems with health during my life. Even during school time I had to get tempridge up with light bulb... But as the proverb says "Ega tali taeva jää!" ("Winter will come always!" - meaning that what has to come that will come). There have popped up some problems with my health. And I dont like it.

I have been "big girl" all my life. But now the meaning big is getting to it's really meaning. And althou it never have bothered me I am big then now I feel it has effect on my health. I have to admit I am FAT!!!

Oh yea, of course I did know that before as well. Just it never bothered me as the fact of poor health. But now... I have really hard to breath, my legs are all swollen up and I have got somekind of heart rythm disorder... So I have to do something. And that something is lose weight!

next time i will recoord it

thats it

Im backk form my barbeque aprty and it was awsome ive not laugh and cried somuch over long time. i now will have trrible headache tomrrow but hei.. maris was kecking when we did leave. Janno did say that he wonderd we didnt piss in pants during the night.. and what the fakk.. too much information about everythig. kats was sou out that couldnt even sing propperly... omfg KATS COULD NOT SSINGG bwhahahahaa

Murphy's law

Since there was WoW's weekly maintenance today till at 11.00 by Paris time (what's now after turning clocks to summertime at 1PM by my time) I was just duing something useful like some schoolwork. Since I thought first that the maintendance will end at 12 by my time (thought that they turn clocks in Paris as well but seems that it is only our free fun of paly with time) I had whole hour to finish my work I was doing (ofc I didnt get it ready for 12) and I decided to get quick wahs as well. Well I do it more often thatn just today but for special care today came from the call I got. I was asked out to barbeque. Wohoo! Quick look out from the window (havent been out from home 5 days already - I have leave from work and the teachers from college are away at schoolings as well whole week)... yep.. meters and meters of snow are all gone. At least under my window.

So my washing.. Since my watersystem is broken i had to use a bowl and a can to pour water on my head. Ofc I wanna complain about it because I have a bath but I cant even use it. I really dream about lying in the hot bath in my own dirty water.... mmmm.... but ofc I dont complain because some ppl in Africa are happy when they have water to drink just :o

Well.. the can was occupied. I did hold there my keefir's pack and who dont know what is keefir it has missed something really delicous what you can make from milk. I did just took the opened plasticbag out from the can and set it on the cupboard to stand and wait may returnd.

My head was real cheese. But well.. we didnt have to get into little details of my washing details. I did was all my special parts and when I returned then guess what... ofc there Murphy's law had fullfilled:

If anything can go wrong, it will
Corollary: It can
Corollary: It should
MacGillicuddy's Corollary: At the most inopportune time
Extension: it will be all your fault, and everyone will know it.

The packet with delicous inside stuff was fallen over and now I just have to go to clean it all up to make sure that noone gets to know anything happened at all. But for that is another Murphy's law, I am sure...

Ok. I am tired. Physically. Can't wait when the college year gets over and I really need leave from work. Well.. will get the leave in a week!!! =D

I have so many times meant to make a note here but... When I am sitting behind the screen my thoughts are gone. If I could just save them when I get them... ;] That would be then like Bioflunz' dreammachine already :P

Nvm. I am alive and doing okay and thats the most important :)

I have several days thought on how I come home and log all what I have thought and seen, done and been but here I am... Weeks later and actually dont want to type any about what I was thinking about then. Like about the winter and trees and snow and the gorgeos feelings I have felt walking in darkness on the street seeing all the amazing beauty of nature. Or about WoW and Kuo, and about Kilo and Tsis, and V, and Tij and hate and love and wasting of time and about college and the studings and.. and... and... Dont know at all why I did log on to write anything because jsut now I feel like a worm enving life of Meego Remmel. Well.. not his life but to be as he is.. simple, intelligent, trusting, helpful and so amazing. I have all the time dreamed to be a good person but actually I really want to shout to everyone that F-word... Yea.. I really want..

So fuck you! Fuck you, fuck you and fuck you too!