Oh, and do NOT leave me, of course...

Unrepentently guilty...

I feel that way. I am studying on III course and I feel I know nothing. I did know some on the first course but now... I know nothing! I just wonder how have I managed to stay in college with studying methods like I have. The Method like "I have time, I have time, I have no time, God help me, I will start study, I make it, I forget my promises..." That has sent me trough the half year. What can I say... Just

GOD, FORGIVE ME!
I AM A SINNER! :(

Quiet stream, deep bottom... EVA!

Did open my emails and saw that Eva did answer to my request to see her blog. Well... didnt see what she did answer, just that she did it and then I just log in to read her writtings. I am still sitting at the children clinic. My day have been really pithful... I did measured a 17 years old boy's RR. Twice. Then I did rub a 8 months old girl's but into Methylen blue (whatever it is). Did hand fever thermometer to 3 different mom/dad that they could measure temperature of their offsprings, did draw tables into a workbook about 3 hours, standed middle the room and tried to keep back yawns and now its at 5 PM and I have read about an hour Eva's blog.

Maris said it is good. Don't know is it good but I really did made funny noices during reading so the nurse, carer and the resident squint at me. So what. Let me home then... They left room and I did really laugh laud till tears. Well.. I have to say it is good because I really laughed. Some experssions did disturbed me but its because of my principles not about she did use them.

Just read her answer as well she wrote to me "I did sent the invite. But I warn you I do write there very and very honestly. Happy reading." LOL. She REALLY did write very honestly there. When you talk about your feelings then you cant lie anyway. You just feel that way on this moment. Is it right then or not.

Xristmas

Kuolema said to me yesterday night Merry Christmas and hopefully we will see again in 2 months about. He is going to visit his parents for the time. Somehow it even made me sad. He said he will log on from laptop but he can't paly from there. But playing its not important because if I want someone to boost instas for me I can always bother Vouivre (althou he always says no) or maybe Tsister or kitkat to help me. In the same it gives me possibility to lvl TigelVigel up to the same lvl with Kjol (Kuo's alt) that we could do some quests together. Thaaaats a positive thing =]

I like Kuolema a lot. He is really kind and friendly person. And very helpful =]

Shadows

I have tried to get Derek of from my thoughts and posts. Out from my life. But it seemed to be not possible. Till I realized couple days ago I will never gt him out from it because he was a part of my life. And I just can't delete that time. But finally I was agree with him, he is an arse. =] He really was, is and probably will be because the truth is that peopel won't change if they wont. I feel sorry of the time I spent crying and longing by him. I was living under well hidden terror of what will happen if I do... live. So I did stop living. I did lose my life and my friends.

I got it all couple days ago when was watching my friends and felt happy again. There will be always shadows in my life but they will be almost gone in shine of my all the happiness from my life :]

Long live sun.

Oh and long live WoW =]

Winter 2009 arraived yesterday. Officially.

Yesterday at 7.49 PM arrived winter in Estonia. Not the fact itself but the white slowly falling snow what did cover the land and the really boring day at children clinic and that continuous sitting and sneaking off time to time to have our fair of chit-chat made us decide to do something together. Outside. In snow.

At first there was 3 and half of us. Maris (1), Kätlin (1), Sandra (0,5) and me (1). Karin, Kadri N and Kerli Ke were just taking things easy and decided that weather outside is not for them. But it was for us. We were standing on the top fo the hill and Maris poke me "So? Let's go?" I did watch down from the hill, then I watched Maris. And then again down from the hill, and then I did watch Kätlin. Sigh. Alright then. I did give the green apple shaped butt plate to Maris and took the big yellow "pan" for myself. Everyone got the sledge accordingly the size of our butts. I did sat on my pan and did push myself down... When I finally got down were my mouth and eyes full of snow and I did hang on to the pan handles. Weeeeeee! That was fun!

3 hours on the hill. Eva L came there before her way to the Norwey course and took 2 rides down form the hill. And finally got Käthlin with her men and son there too. So finally left from the hill 5 of us. Maris (1), Kätlin (1), Sandra (0,5), Rinaldo (1), Käthlin (1), Markus (0,5) and me (1) ofc.

We decided to not go to Kapriis. Not that i would know where or what it is. But we just decided to take pizza and some snacks and go to the students house where Käthlin and Rinaldo and a room. Kätlin and Sandra left us but Kerlik Ke and Tiivi (who knows who was her) joined with us. We did eat 2,4 kilo pizza, bowl of chips and teh other bowl of raw veggies with dip sauce. Also we did drink a 1,5 liter of limonade Kreizi Maasikas and 2 litres of glög. Althou I did thought I will explode I couldnt stop my hands go again to veggies or chips bowl and then again near my mouth.. Exploding was not only dangerous what was lurking by us there but once I did almost choke because of unability stop laugh with full mouth...

So. Winter did arrive yesterday. Officially.

Today again.. I am sitting at children clinic and feel I have body.. My body muscles are in fire. Especially my tummy. Its really good to laugh..

In Intensivroom

Boring.

Boring. Boring. Boring.

Boring.

Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring. Boring.

BOOOOORING!

At least half of day has been really nothing to do. I have been twice in blood center to get ordered blood. And it is a job of carers not for nurses or midwives. I did it only because I did know where it is and because it was so boring there. Since there was nothing to do in the intensive room, I did ask can I be in the main gyn. depratment then. I got premission. Being in the departmetn... what can I say... It was...

BOOOOORING!

I had possibility to stand next to nurse when she took out a drainage tube from a patient stomach. She had laparosocopy. Then I had possibility all alone take out the catheter. Then I did stole 2 apples from personal room (there was really big basketful apples on the table). And then I moved to intensive room because finally they did bring an old lady back from operation. Between all of those things I did was lots of time I sat just like that on a chair and was watching into the nurses every move to guess what she wants to do for next and then ask can I do that. And its already 12:37 PM.

I'll survive...

I did fall asleep about half past 2 PM after I made myself put the book on the shelf next the bed. Bella had become as a vampire and my main curiousity was sattisfied. Only question was that what the heck was talking the next half book then now? All problems seemed to be solved with vampirizing...

But I needed sleep. I had to get up early on the morning next day. Or axtually I had to get up already in 4,5 hour today.

I didnt see dream on this night. It was not very hard to get up on the morning since I had good long nap in last evening. I had to go to work today in main hospital house. Suring last days it happened that people desired more to work on main house than in Vallikraavi. The clinic in Vallikraavi street has just lots of patients in really bad conditions. Just a carer and a nurs for 30 patient from 4 or 5 were really ill and needed lots of care, is obviously too much. People are tired and complaing.

But I had to go to Puusepa's clinic today, so I was doing fine. There was just 8 patients. Ah great! And only 3 will come. Thats great too because every new patient meant to me that I had to walk to otherside of the building about 3 times and the rout was looooooooooong! About 400 meters I guess. But still there had to be a dark spot in my day. 6 patients were going home so it meant for me 6 beds to clean and do. And 6 is really a lot. But still I was happy. Last time an old patient was hugging me and telling me I am good person. His gratitude was most welcome. So good is to know that I at least someone thinks I am good person. Not as my mom...

That was bitter, wasn't it? Yeah. I have to work with that bitterness in me. Inside of me I knew she is good person and I would do everything to her when she needs me. Just I stull wish that when she has nothing good to say she should say nothing at all. And it could be permanent silence. That would make me happy thou. The silence is something rare with her. If there is not playing TV, radio and ringing both of her cell phones mixed with land line then she talks herself even alone... When she leaves from home I turn off all noisers and do enjoy the silence around me. Till Jakob arrives of course... He has got the genes from his granny I guess. A 13 yeard old boy should not talk so much! Oh, I am unfair with him, I know, I know...

It's 2 PM and I am sooo tired. The naighbour's carer passes from me, smiles and shakes her head. She is tired too. It's not harder only in our department but in their as well. I am happy. All 3 patients have came and found their places and most of the leavers have left already. I have managed to get all bloods to the laboratory and brought all chemicals from chemists as well. I had do just 8 trips in otherside of the building and now I could consendrate on the beds. I have done already a bed and only 5 is to go. Woohoo!

For almost at 4 PM I am finished all 6 beds. Done. I did get out my studyngs and set all papers on nurses table and took a place there. She was gone somewhwere so I did log into my email account and facebook...

D answered to me in facebook. He was asking what do I want to do and I felt behind teh question that he was laughing at me. I am used to be a clown so I didn't mind that either since he was also writting that if I want to do that then I should do that and if I want to that then I should do that. I wanted to do the other that. Sadly I was at work and didn't reach to my PC. I thought that I should send thanks to him and say that everything is fine now, but then again I did rethought. Maybe when I get home tomorrow I will find myself in situation where I actually didnt get help in any of those thats and then I should make myself a fool again with my next letter. Probably I wouldn't even mind that if it would be someone else but since the history of us I had no idea yet how should I really communicate with him or should I at all.

Of course I should! The feelings we had should not leave nothing there. I really want to keep the memory of them and it just hurts that there is jsut pail of ash beside those feelings now. Just wondering how long I am able to cheat myself. I do know that there is nothing much about it anymore. No pain, no compation, no intrest, no even memory about the feelings we had. Just a memory that we had something big but what was it? Just funny. Or actually more philosophic. That there could happen something better with you the previous thing had to end. Of course the end is something what no-one wants because human imagination is really poor. I had to live to 32 years old before I did realize that when something does end then something will start. It makes me smile now when I think that I knew on the same hour that it is improving of my life when I actually was in pain of newborn. Also I saw why my previous relationships were good for my person. And I am really grateful for all of that to God. I feel somehow that I can see larger picture now about whoule of my life. Not all of course, but also not only the secment what is just infront of me but larger piece... It gives me feeling kinda I am free. Don't ask free from what... Just free! Yeah...

But D is a cookie as I said ealier. I knew he will answer. And I believe my PC problem is resolved now. Just I need to reach to my PC ealier than my mom!

Crap happens...

I was sitting infront of my PC's empty desktop and trying to figure out where was the button what allowed to restore the PC back a week or 2. I was not angry. I was jsut a bit upset but not angry. I had have rough time last week - all the college and work what seemed to get harder with every new shift I appeared at work. The patients were more ill and it happened often when some of them died. The world is going down.

So no, I was not angry. I had just had harass night at work and really long day at the med college. I had to do homework but I was so tired. Kats called at me and asked can she come at me to work with an article what we had to translate from English to Estonian. But she said se will come a bit later at night. I just couldnt hold my eyes open, so I lied down to take a nap couple hours. It was half past 11 PM now and I was sitting infront of empty PC's desktop. There was running WoW on my laptop what needed to insert password. Hmm...

I could remember that I hear Kats to come in and that Jakob said that I am sleeping. But I couldn't get out from bed just. Kats asked can she be on PC and I mumbled trough sleep its fine. We were talking some more, I remembered but probably I just fell back in sleep after that. Now I just had lovely note on the table in front of me from her what said "Thank you, thank you, thank you that you let me use your Internet. You are very dear to me. Kats."

I felt guilty. How could she tell I am dear when I even didnt get up to offer a cup of coffee to her. And what about the artickle... And where the heck was that system restore button! I had looked for every possible place I could think it was and it was not there.

D! He knows stuff like that! And I just needed the hint where should I check. I could do all everything all myself.

"Hei, sorry for bothering but I hope you dont mind helping me out for my trouble. I need to turn history back on my PC. I have done it before so I dont need long explanation. Just where the heck is that history button where I can do all the other stuff!?? BFC", I did message through facebook.

I did wait. Yeah, I woke up and realized the time. "Get to bed!" Jakob was sitting on PC still. When I went to bed before I did let him to play his account Karliz on WOW. It wont happen often I let him to do that but today was the day. When I woke up he was not sitting on my laptop thou... He just mumbled "Something happened. Granny will be mad..."

What??? Jee... do I really needed that now! I was thinking on my mom's whiny face and histrionic sighs when she gets over all the topics how we should not touch her stuff if we dont care about them and how the life will theach to us how to hold things when we start having ours once and how she has to work all the time and so on. My heart was sore of that. I know she had done a lot in here life and she has done well. She has been a good mom... in some way. But why she could not see that I was trying as well? Why she couldn't drop me any good word what could help me on? I need to restore the system!!! It has to help me set everything back on the desktop!

I did check emails. Nope. He were not near of his emailbox today. Ah anyway. I did change the password on the PC so my mom will call me anyway when she wants to get on so I would know when the catastrophe was happening. Maybe I have luck and I can restore it before that. D will answer to me I know. He is a real cookie. But today... Today I am going back to bed and will read a book. I know I should not open it because its hard to put away again but still... Couple chapetrs wont harm. The college will start later tomorrow anyway. And I was curious was Bella still coming vampire or not. Whole that dance over becoming a vampire has last trough all the first 3 series. I hope that the "Breaking dawn" is last book in Bella's story by Stephanie Meyer... I really need to dedicate on my studings but the books have made it really hard. And the WoW as well... I am still level 73 and do envy otehrs on the lvl 80. Also there have been rumours about new expansion coming out where the max lvls on lvl 85. Oh dear... My studings will suffer =]

I hit the bed rather now...

Just can't be possible...

Christian girl loves muslim dog... :(
A lot...
She adores him, loves and hates him :/

Hah!!!

/me sings... Muslim dog loves christian girl, muslim dog adores christian girl! ;)

Sssssssssssssssss! :D

Just a random convo from IRC ;)

[18:35:44] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[18:36:00] -DiFeReNTe-: that's a little creepy funny nick
[18:36:27] -DiFeReNTe-: name is eric...
[18:36:33] -LittleCreepyGirl-: yours not bad too
[18:36:34] -LittleCreepyGirl-: hi
[18:36:44] -LittleCreepyGirl-: what makes you different?
[18:37:11] -DiFeReNTe-: my will to be different, I guess
[18:37:29] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and how are you different?
[18:38:04] -DiFeReNTe-: well
[18:38:13] -DiFeReNTe-: I enjoy to think
[18:39:51] -DiFeReNTe-: I don't have any mass psychology
[18:40:12] -DiFeReNTe-: I?m not ugly... but I just don't go out
[18:40:36] -DiFeReNTe-: ratter to keep writting my poetry in my self retirement
[18:40:43] -DiFeReNTe-: I'm a medicine student
[18:41:50] -DiFeReNTe-: My object of study is the human and I want to profundize my psychological, biological and espiritual comprenssion of the human being
[18:42:05] -DiFeReNTe-: I'm the only bolivia nacionalsocialist I know
[18:42:12] -DiFeReNTe-: and... well..
[18:42:49] -DiFeReNTe-: ...what do u think?
[18:42:55] -DiFeReNTe-: ran away already?
[18:43:14] -LittleCreepyGirl-: lol
[18:44:14] -DiFeReNTe-: What about ur interests?
[18:44:40] -LittleCreepyGirl-: Should study for exam tomorrow ;)
[18:44:41] -DiFeReNTe-: I mean... u like to party, I think.... everyone does (but me)
[18:44:48] -DiFeReNTe-: mmm
[18:45:02] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but like always I will apear in IRC when I should study
[18:45:18] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I think it is just a way to escape ;D
[18:45:20] -DiFeReNTe-: and what about MSN?
[18:45:31] -DiFeReNTe-: I mean...
[18:45:49] -DiFeReNTe-: U r pretty interesting and entusiastic to just let u go
[18:46:52] -DiFeReNTe-: I'd be really pleased to keep in touch with U, only if u like so
[18:47:42] -DiFeReNTe-: I must confess I really admire intelligence and humor in the people...
[18:47:59] -LittleCreepyGirl-: oh that's really intresting
[18:48:37] -LittleCreepyGirl-: we have changed couple words about nothing and you already saw how intelligent I am ;)
[18:48:57] -DiFeReNTe-: I can get an idea...
[18:49:08] -DiFeReNTe-: ;) a good one
[18:50:28] -DiFeReNTe-: So now I would like to exchange mails or something... I almost have no contactsē
[18:50:33] -LittleCreepyGirl-: it may just mean that you are on very intelligent ... :P
[18:50:47] -LittleCreepyGirl-: not*
[18:50:52] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ohohhoo!
[18:51:05] -LittleCreepyGirl-: on first date you want my contacts already!
[18:51:11] -LittleCreepyGirl-: what will happen for next?
[18:51:17] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you will propse me?
[18:51:32] -DiFeReNTe-: maybe an scape to an island
[18:51:56] -DiFeReNTe-: I still didn't think already...
[18:52:03] -DiFeReNTe-: Well...
[18:52:26] -DiFeReNTe-: I don't use to use the irc, so please don't take it so bad
[18:52:44] -LittleCreepyGirl-: why should I care about it? :)
[18:52:54] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I do use IRC quite often ;)
[18:52:57] -DiFeReNTe-: and I also have a clear idea about what i want
[18:53:21] -DiFeReNTe-: I just using my right to ask
[18:53:26] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[18:53:38] -DiFeReNTe-: think I really suck at this
[18:54:22] -DiFeReNTe-: :|
[18:54:26] -LittleCreepyGirl-: well.. what do you think how many times in a day I get offerings to change email addresses or MSN contacts? ;)
[18:54:38] -DiFeReNTe-: mmmm
[18:54:45] -DiFeReNTe-: now u got a point
[18:54:58] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and how many lists I would have for contacts who all want to talk with me in MSN?
[18:55:14] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so should I take secretary to talk with all of them ;)
[18:55:14] -DiFeReNTe-: maybe that's why u should be selective
[18:55:24] -DiFeReNTe-: so... please... slect now
[18:55:26] -LittleCreepyGirl-: good that you do understand me :)
[18:55:31] -LittleCreepyGirl-: nope
[18:55:40] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[18:55:59] -DiFeReNTe-: I should'n asked u that way
[18:56:09] -DiFeReNTe-: Is just I so appreciate intelligence
[18:56:25] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I cant see the point why I should select you?
[18:56:38] -DiFeReNTe-: the intelligence and sensivity are the key to the truth an I love so much the truth
[18:57:30] -LittleCreepyGirl-: well.. I will get the point why you want my contact
[18:57:53] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but your flattering is not what makes me you to add you
[18:57:58] -DiFeReNTe-: Think I should be glad
[18:58:05] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so give me some reason I should do that ;)
[18:58:09] -LittleCreepyGirl-: real reason ;)
[18:58:17] -DiFeReNTe-: Ehmmm
[18:58:22] -DiFeReNTe-: I have a good one
[18:58:27] -DiFeReNTe-: that was not flattering
[18:58:38] -LittleCreepyGirl-: oh it was
[18:58:47] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and it didn't have effect ;)
[18:59:17] -DiFeReNTe-: I was just explaining how do i love truth and how intelligent and sensitive people makes me feel a little nearer
[19:00:46] -LittleCreepyGirl-: yes
[19:00:47] -DiFeReNTe-: I appreciate the way you want to give me a chance to convince you
[19:00:49] -DiFeReNTe-: I appreciate the way you want to give me a chance to convince you
[19:02:09] -DiFeReNTe-: But it's to hard... there r people who r really professionals in the chatting game. I just can tell you what I think about u and the girls who put "creepy" on her nicks
[19:02:14] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and since our convo havent been very long then it just brings up doubts about the serious of what you did say :)
[19:02:37] -DiFeReNTe-: :o
[19:02:49] -DiFeReNTe-: u really think, my fella
[19:03:01] -DiFeReNTe-: amazing
[19:03:45] -LittleCreepyGirl-: oh tell me
[19:04:19] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I am really intrested what do you think about girls who call themselves as Creepy :)
[19:05:31] -DiFeReNTe-: I think they perceive the little funny irreverence that involves the use the word as "creepy" to describe a not-conventional carismatic personality
[19:08:06] -DiFeReNTe-: and it also could mean that they r not "narrow minded"
[19:08:16] -DiFeReNTe-: with all the advantages that includes
[19:08:21] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[19:08:27] -LittleCreepyGirl-: what are they then?
[19:10:49] -DiFeReNTe-: ehmmmmmmmm
[19:11:23] -DiFeReNTe-: I'll try to explain it the best way possible
[19:11:41] -LittleCreepyGirl-: if they are not "narrow minded"
[19:11:48] -LittleCreepyGirl-: then what are they? :)
[19:11:59] -DiFeReNTe-: they r the ideal land to plant the greatests seeds. The place where the biggest ideas can grow
[19:12:43] -DiFeReNTe-: open-minded
[19:12:46] -DiFeReNTe-: :|
[19:14:04] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so what is the seed you want to plant in them? ;)
[19:14:43] -DiFeReNTe-: u r really smart
[19:14:49] -DiFeReNTe-: starting to scare me....
[19:15:02] -DiFeReNTe-: I just want to exchange opinions
[19:15:46] -DiFeReNTe-: I like to think and like to others people ideas... cause when u see other has got to the same idea as you by a different way you know that's cause the idea is true
[19:18:19] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so what is the seed you want to share? :)
[19:18:31] -DiFeReNTe-: mmmmmm
[19:18:36] -DiFeReNTe-: well..
[19:18:39] -LittleCreepyGirl-: what is the topic you want to have discuss about?
[19:18:39] -DiFeReNTe-: U won
[19:18:51] -LittleCreepyGirl-: won what? ;)
[19:19:49] -DiFeReNTe-: I'd like to discuss about anything.... life, death, books, animals, politics
[19:20:47] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I thought you have some message to tell me ;)
[19:20:53] -LittleCreepyGirl-: some seed to plant on me ;)
[19:21:04] -DiFeReNTe-: if u understand spanish u can take a peek to my material... a little tiny part www.fotolog.com/tanatorio
[19:21:21] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but I dont understand spanish :)
[19:21:35] -DiFeReNTe-: there r three funny pics
[19:21:39] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so you have to explain it to me here and now
[19:22:18] -DiFeReNTe-: how do u get to mess with my head?
[19:22:32] -DiFeReNTe-: never happened me before
[19:22:37] -DiFeReNTe-: how old r u?
[19:23:31] -DiFeReNTe-: I really need to know
[19:23:48] -DiFeReNTe-: :| feel like in "silence of the lambs"
[19:23:58] -LittleCreepyGirl-: how old being would be ok for you? ;)
[19:24:16] -DiFeReNTe-: that is not an answer, my fella
[19:24:35] -DiFeReNTe-: tell me the right number and promise that would be my favorite one
[19:24:57] -DiFeReNTe-: I would say u r ehmmmmm
[19:25:00] -DiFeReNTe-: 20
[19:25:02] -DiFeReNTe-: æ?
[19:25:05] -DiFeReNTe-: 40?
[19:25:09] -DiFeReNTe-: 1500?
[19:25:15] -LittleCreepyGirl-: do you feel like Hannibal Lector or like his victims? ;)
[19:25:32] -DiFeReNTe-: Haha...
[19:25:51] -DiFeReNTe-: pretty funny, Dr Lecter
[19:25:57] -DiFeReNTe-: now tell me ur age
[19:26:05] -LittleCreepyGirl-: what would you prefer? 20 or 40? ;)
[19:26:38] -DiFeReNTe-: i reallly don't care
[19:26:47] -DiFeReNTe-: any age under 50 is good
[19:27:06] -LittleCreepyGirl-: in this case I am not over 50
[19:27:15] -DiFeReNTe-: oooooooo
[19:27:16] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so that's all waht you need to know ;)
[19:27:24] -LittleCreepyGirl-: cos you dont care ;)
[19:27:35] -DiFeReNTe-: now tell me so I can tell u something really funny about the pics I want u to see
[19:28:08] -DiFeReNTe-: U had ur fun.
[19:28:10] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you dont need my age for that ;)
[19:28:11] -DiFeReNTe-: C'mon
[19:28:14] -DiFeReNTe-: let it out
[19:28:31] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I am, still having my fun ;)
[19:28:39] -DiFeReNTe-: yeah
[19:28:42] -DiFeReNTe-: i can FEEL it
[19:28:45] -DiFeReNTe-: deep inside
[19:28:57] -DiFeReNTe-: funny feeling u cause on me
[19:29:18] -DiFeReNTe-: like a inner unfreezing
[19:29:22] -DiFeReNTe-: strange
[19:29:37] -DiFeReNTe-: let's keep on the game
[19:29:51] -DiFeReNTe-: so I also like girls over 18
[19:29:53] -LittleCreepyGirl-: feel it breath it believe it and youll be walking on air ;)
[19:30:12] -DiFeReNTe-: ha ha
[19:30:14] -DiFeReNTe-: :')
[19:30:18] -DiFeReNTe-: u kill me
[19:30:22] -DiFeReNTe-: u really do :|
[19:31:19] -DiFeReNTe-: I would like to go before u tell me u want to go or need to go to study
[19:31:25] -LittleCreepyGirl-: With her little funny eyes of hazel, with her little funny old blue hat. She will go and set the world on fire - No one ever thougt she could do that
[19:32:10] -LittleCreepyGirl-: i need to go to study long time ago already ;)
[19:32:19] -DiFeReNTe-: haha
[19:32:21] -DiFeReNTe-: HA
[19:32:23] -DiFeReNTe-: :D
[19:32:24] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so you can freely leave :)
[19:32:33] -DiFeReNTe-: No, i can't
[19:32:43] -LittleCreepyGirl-: what keeps you here?
[19:33:27] -DiFeReNTe-: I still have not convinced u to stop torturing me with ur negative
[19:33:45] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I am very positive ;)
[19:33:47] -DiFeReNTe-: couldn't forgive me that
[19:33:54] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[19:33:56] -DiFeReNTe-: so
[19:34:12] -DiFeReNTe-: u have an email address u would like to share with me?
[19:34:16] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I say very positivel "no" to you ;)
[19:34:32] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I say very positively "no" to you ;)
[19:34:42] -DiFeReNTe-: let me guess...
[19:34:47] -DiFeReNTe-: u r not being sarcastic
[19:35:05] -DiFeReNTe-: u have made ur decision
[19:35:14] -LittleCreepyGirl-: bingo ;)
[19:35:33] -DiFeReNTe-: it's my fault
[19:35:40] -DiFeReNTe-: should'nt asked u that
[19:35:48] -DiFeReNTe-: not in the first chat session
[19:35:59] -DiFeReNTe-: causes a bad impression
[19:36:43] -DiFeReNTe-: so I think I must do something to straight things up
[19:36:48] -DiFeReNTe-: :D
[19:36:54] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I am so happy that you finally (after couple meters of conversation) got it ;)
[19:37:18] -DiFeReNTe-: U can have my address
[19:37:23] -DiFeReNTe-: nomeimportista@hotmail.com
[19:37:43] -LittleCreepyGirl-: hahahaaaa
[19:37:55] -DiFeReNTe-: ;)
[19:38:03] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you are and optimist ;)
[19:38:09] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you are an optimist ;)
[19:38:42] -LittleCreepyGirl-: hopefully it will alleviate your dissapointment ;)
[19:38:48] -DiFeReNTe-: believe me
[19:39:13] -LittleCreepyGirl-: breath it
[19:39:14] -DiFeReNTe-: if u just think I have a strange behavior u block me and finished
[19:39:15] -LittleCreepyGirl-: feel it
[19:39:26] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and you'll walking on air ;)
[19:39:56] -DiFeReNTe-: I have many art material and things u'll really like to see
[19:40:11] -DiFeReNTe-: my favorite is "me, the cat and the funny hat"
[19:40:25] -LittleCreepyGirl-: how do you know I do like it?
[19:40:37] -DiFeReNTe-: male intuition u may call it
[19:40:47] -DiFeReNTe-: the fact is that i do
[19:41:14] -DiFeReNTe-: and I also know u like interesting and not common people
[19:41:37] -DiFeReNTe-: and that is enough reason to keep in contact now that I realize it
[19:41:52] -LittleCreepyGirl-: not intrested ;)
[19:42:09] -DiFeReNTe-: I now
[19:42:29] -DiFeReNTe-: look
[19:42:37] -DiFeReNTe-: here's the reason
[19:42:52] * LittleCreepyGirl with her little creepy face, saying funny things that you've never heard..
[19:43:14] -LittleCreepyGirl-: do you know what it's all about?
[19:43:28] -LittleCreepyGirl-: are you brave enough to figure out?? ;)
[19:43:44] -DiFeReNTe-: mmmmmmm
[19:43:54] -DiFeReNTe-: that u don't like me at all
[19:43:59] -LittleCreepyGirl-: do you know the song?
[19:44:33] -DiFeReNTe-: No, I don't...
[19:44:54] -DiFeReNTe-: look
[19:45:17] -DiFeReNTe-: when u get a "no" from someone u may get sure that person will deny you almost everything later
[19:45:32] -LittleCreepyGirl-: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5RliKuMUb4 :)
[19:45:36] -LittleCreepyGirl-: listen then ;)
[19:45:55] -DiFeReNTe-: that's why the best starting for a syber-friendship would be that u accept my humble proposition
[19:46:37] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but who told you that I care about the person denying me later? ;)
[19:47:15] -DiFeReNTe-: I'm telling that ifu deny me ur msn as u do that would spoil the whole conversation
[19:47:39] -LittleCreepyGirl-: for me or for you? ;)
[19:47:53] -DiFeReNTe-: for what is worth for both
[19:48:17] -LittleCreepyGirl-: who are you that you know what is worth for me?
[19:49:17] -DiFeReNTe-: I'm just telling is that it would be perfect if u care
[19:49:20] -DiFeReNTe-: I don't lie
[19:49:24] -DiFeReNTe-: I don't leave
[19:49:34] -DiFeReNTe-: i don't dissappoint
[19:49:52] -DiFeReNTe-: and I don't hurt
[19:50:01] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so they tell always ;)
[19:50:11] -LittleCreepyGirl-: why it would be different now ;)
[19:50:17] -DiFeReNTe-: I don't know
[19:50:30] -DiFeReNTe-: I used to use a female nick's when teen pranking
[19:50:46] -DiFeReNTe-: but.... they were real perverts
[19:50:48] -DiFeReNTe-: :|
[19:52:31] -DiFeReNTe-: that's why it's easy to understand ur dennial... What I find difficult is to show U that if u don't like me then means the world is a little more absurd than i thought
[19:53:46] -LittleCreepyGirl-: awww.. are you pressing now on my compation about you? ;)
[19:54:04] -LittleCreepyGirl-: are you trying to find out my weaknesses? ;)
[19:54:15] -DiFeReNTe-: :(
[19:54:37] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you have poked me everywhere already and you see.. I have really strong shell arond me ;)
[19:54:52] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but you still try ;)
[19:54:55] -DiFeReNTe-: I just want to have ur mail adress to send u some written and graphic material. If it causes u so many trouble... I hire u the secretary
[19:55:12] -LittleCreepyGirl-: hahaha
[19:55:29] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I am not intrested about those graphics ;)
[19:55:46] -DiFeReNTe-: ok, then let's make them books
[19:55:50] -DiFeReNTe-: I love them
[19:55:56] -DiFeReNTe-: my favorite know is the bible
[19:56:00] -LittleCreepyGirl-: good for you ;)
[19:56:05] -DiFeReNTe-: I also like the apocriphs
[19:56:21] -DiFeReNTe-: :(
[19:56:36] -DiFeReNTe-: u have not a shell
[19:56:53] -LittleCreepyGirl-: optimist ;)
[19:56:54] -DiFeReNTe-: is just that u have made a shell around me
[19:57:08] -DiFeReNTe-: well, missie
[19:57:17] -LittleCreepyGirl-: oh? now I am intrested already ;)
[19:57:35] -LittleCreepyGirl-: where are you from? ;)
[19:57:43] -DiFeReNTe-: told u already
[19:57:46] -DiFeReNTe-: Bolivia
[19:58:00] -DiFeReNTe-: U know... a little country... South america...
[19:58:01] -LittleCreepyGirl-: darksikinned and hot men ;)
[19:58:03] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I see ;)
[19:58:08] -DiFeReNTe-: mmm
[19:58:12] -DiFeReNTe-: well
[19:58:20] -DiFeReNTe-: my skin is not that dark
[19:58:36] -LittleCreepyGirl-: your hair colour?
[19:58:46] -DiFeReNTe-: But I have a pretty interesting look
[19:58:58] -LittleCreepyGirl-: why is it intresting?
[19:59:04] -DiFeReNTe-: my hair is dark brown same as my eyes
[19:59:26] -DiFeReNTe-: cause I look like a tender and cute scientist
[20:00:25] -DiFeReNTe-: ehm...
[20:00:27] -LittleCreepyGirl-: oh I see ;)
[20:01:02] -DiFeReNTe-: Mmm... yeah.... I like the bright of my eyes... I think everyoone who has bright eyes has brightness on him
[20:01:13] -DiFeReNTe-: my face is too expressive
[20:01:23] -DiFeReNTe-: I'm thin, but really strong
[20:03:07] -DiFeReNTe-: I'd hate to have a belly
[20:03:23] -DiFeReNTe-: that's why I don't abusse of junk food
[20:03:43] -DiFeReNTe-: maybe it has been a junk-day
[20:03:49] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;P
[20:04:07] -DiFeReNTe-: :|
[20:04:13] -DiFeReNTe-: did I offend someone?
[20:04:16] -DiFeReNTe-: Well
[20:04:21] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so why do you have to find someone from IRC with such a look you have?
[20:04:32] -DiFeReNTe-: Cause.... here
[20:04:35] -DiFeReNTe-: in Bolivia
[20:04:39] -DiFeReNTe-: girls
[20:04:42] -DiFeReNTe-: r
[20:04:47] -DiFeReNTe-: not so smart
[20:04:53] -DiFeReNTe-: u r a genius
[20:05:16] -DiFeReNTe-: and I also don't go out so much...
[20:05:37] -DiFeReNTe-: My house is too big to feel claustrophobic
[20:06:22] -DiFeReNTe-: I also use to be rude with people
[20:06:48] -DiFeReNTe-: specially girls... I don't want to mess with their emotions
[20:07:22] -DiFeReNTe-: it would be... mean
[20:07:24] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but you want to mess with my emotions?
[20:07:31] -LittleCreepyGirl-: iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiintresting!
[20:07:43] -DiFeReNTe-: :o
[20:08:04] -DiFeReNTe-: U r so funny
[20:08:07] -DiFeReNTe-: H AHA HA
[20:08:14] -DiFeReNTe-: he he...
[20:08:17] -DiFeReNTe-: c'mon
[20:08:49] -DiFeReNTe-: u now u r a manipulator, u don't need me to tell u so
[20:09:13] -DiFeReNTe-: U think I would dare to use a trick on u?
[20:09:36] -DiFeReNTe-: no... it wouldn't work on u
[20:09:39] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[20:09:45] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you can still try ;)
[20:09:50] -DiFeReNTe-: on u only works the truth
[20:09:59] -LittleCreepyGirl-: it would be more intresting that the drooling you do now ;)
[20:10:13] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ah but when will we get to the truth?
[20:10:15] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[20:10:31] -DiFeReNTe-: when u get interested
[20:10:34] -LittleCreepyGirl-: how old are you?
[20:10:47] -DiFeReNTe-: 23
[20:11:09] -DiFeReNTe-: see? a sincere guy
[20:11:16] -DiFeReNTe-: ;)
[20:11:16] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so I get now why your limit gets to 50 only ;)
[20:11:47] -DiFeReNTe-: I meant that cause I love children and ur question was vague
[20:12:55] -DiFeReNTe-: I thought my sister was the smartest girl on the world. But u seem to be more mature, not for saying intelligent
[20:13:13] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and how old is your sis?
[20:13:20] -DiFeReNTe-: 17
[20:13:40] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I think she is still smart :)
[20:14:44] -DiFeReNTe-: I think... But... when I analyze the content on ur messages I realize u r smarter than a I could ever wait
[20:14:51] -LittleCreepyGirl-: anyway, Bolivian darkskinned cute guy with dark brown hair and big enough house to not have claustrophobia
[20:14:51] -DiFeReNTe-: well
[20:15:32] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[20:15:35] -LittleCreepyGirl-: i leave you here now to find someone who wants to see your graphics ;)
[20:15:57] -DiFeReNTe-: hey
[20:16:02] -DiFeReNTe-: just add me
[20:16:05] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I need to study ;)
[20:16:10] -DiFeReNTe-: I'll take care of the rest
[20:16:29] -LittleCreepyGirl-: what is that rest you will care of? ;)
[20:17:03] -DiFeReNTe-: to get u to know me
[20:17:19] -DiFeReNTe-: I'll traslate my writings for u
[20:17:26] -DiFeReNTe-: Prepare pics
[20:17:28] -LittleCreepyGirl-: hah ;)
[20:17:33] -DiFeReNTe-: My inedit videos...
[20:17:43] -LittleCreepyGirl-: lets make so that you care of the rest first
[20:17:58] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and then we may talk about addings ;)
[20:17:59] -DiFeReNTe-: okey dokey
[20:18:09] -LittleCreepyGirl-: okey donkey ;)
[20:18:16] -DiFeReNTe-: just leave me ur adress to send u them
[20:18:37] -DiFeReNTe-: promise not to add u to msn until u give me the permission
[20:18:50] -LittleCreepyGirl-: good try ;)
[20:19:06] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but for that I should be more naive than you believe I am ;)
[20:19:13] -DiFeReNTe-: :o
[20:19:14] -DiFeReNTe-: Hey
[20:19:19] -DiFeReNTe-: I really promise
[20:19:27] -DiFeReNTe-: I like to write
[20:19:32] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and I really believe you ;)
[20:19:34] -DiFeReNTe-: And know u like to read me
[20:19:36] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but still
[20:19:43] -DiFeReNTe-: That's not fair
[20:19:54] -DiFeReNTe-: u said the reason was the msn list
[20:20:04] -DiFeReNTe-: u said nothing about ur mail adress
[20:20:06] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I care enough about you to not give you any temptation ;)
[20:20:14] -DiFeReNTe-: :o
[20:20:18] -DiFeReNTe-: But
[20:20:27] -DiFeReNTe-: I am inmune to temptations
[20:20:30] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[20:20:31] -LittleCreepyGirl-: no "butts" ;)
[20:20:41] -DiFeReNTe-: just this time
[20:20:52] -DiFeReNTe-: make an exception
[20:20:59] -DiFeReNTe-: will be a good excercise
[20:21:06] -DiFeReNTe-: I deserve that
[20:21:09] -DiFeReNTe-: give me a try
[20:21:09] -LittleCreepyGirl-: hah! You are stubborn :)
[20:21:18] -LittleCreepyGirl-: oh sorry ;)
[20:21:22] -DiFeReNTe-: U'll never see an invitation from me on ur msn
[20:21:27] -LittleCreepyGirl-: the word is DETERMINED ;)
[20:22:02] -DiFeReNTe-: hey
[20:22:03] -LittleCreepyGirl-: DO you know what
[20:22:13] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I will put all that convo into my blog ;)
[20:22:27] -DiFeReNTe-: how am i suppossed to send u messages?
[20:22:30] -DiFeReNTe-: smoke signals?
[20:22:40] -LittleCreepyGirl-: would be good try :D
[20:22:52] -DiFeReNTe-: sorry, don't smoke
[20:22:55] -DiFeReNTe-: hehe
[20:22:56] -DiFeReNTe-: coff
[20:23:00] -DiFeReNTe-: :|
[20:23:05] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[20:23:27] -DiFeReNTe-: now tell me and I promise I'll be a good guy
[20:23:40] -LittleCreepyGirl-: tell you what?
[20:23:55] -DiFeReNTe-: the address I chould write
[20:24:01] -DiFeReNTe-: *should
[20:24:22] -DiFeReNTe-: I'll handwrite it if it's necessary to don't get u spam
[20:24:26] -LittleCreepyGirl-: hillaryclinton@whitehouse.com ;)
[20:24:43] -DiFeReNTe-: u r.......
[20:24:47] -DiFeReNTe-: :')
[20:25:04] -LittleCreepyGirl-: what am I? ;)
[20:25:19] -DiFeReNTe-: special...
[20:25:31] -LittleCreepyGirl-: special what? ;)
[20:25:40] -DiFeReNTe-: and I'm special enough to notice how special u r
[20:25:58] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[20:26:01] -DiFeReNTe-: Let it be ur will
[20:26:10] -LittleCreepyGirl-: last one ;)
[20:26:38] -DiFeReNTe-: let my hope in a future friendship with u sunkens on the sea of nowhere
[20:27:29] -LittleCreepyGirl-: oh you are poet too ;)
[20:27:47] -DiFeReNTe-: I'm a box of chocolates
[20:29:03] -LittleCreepyGirl-: hopefoully filled with milkcream ;)
[20:29:32] -DiFeReNTe-: with ur name on it
[20:29:34] -DiFeReNTe-: ;)
[20:29:54] -LittleCreepyGirl-: Take care, chocolate boy ;)
[20:30:05] -DiFeReNTe-: hey
[20:30:14] -DiFeReNTe-: the address, lady
[20:30:18] -DiFeReNTe-: uff
[20:30:34] -DiFeReNTe-: U really r mean when u try
[20:30:39] -DiFeReNTe-: but this is serious
[20:30:59] -DiFeReNTe-: we r talking about the future of a great friendship here
[20:31:52] -DiFeReNTe-: just write it down and let's keep on with our lives
[20:33:41] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you would be good saleman ;)
[20:34:03] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but I dont have money to buy it anyway ;)
[20:34:17] -DiFeReNTe-: i will... I will sell plastic surgerys
[20:34:21] -DiFeReNTe-: HEY
[20:34:26] -DiFeReNTe-: hahahaha
[20:34:28] -DiFeReNTe-: goood one
[20:34:45] -DiFeReNTe-: talking about profession
[20:35:11] -DiFeReNTe-: My body is still on the morgue, gotta go before it starts stinking
[20:35:33] -DiFeReNTe-: It will be a hard autopsy afternoon
[20:36:25] -LittleCreepyGirl-: :)
[20:36:40] -DiFeReNTe-: u can make it a pleaseant afternoon, coming to think
[20:36:51] -DiFeReNTe-: please... do
[20:36:54] -LittleCreepyGirl-: how long more to finish your studings?
[20:37:02] -DiFeReNTe-: 2 years
[20:37:06] -LittleCreepyGirl-: :)
[20:37:14] -LittleCreepyGirl-: then you will be rich rich man ;)
[20:37:40] -DiFeReNTe-: Not thinking about that.. but think that comes with work
[20:37:47] -DiFeReNTe-: if my dad could...
[20:37:51] -DiFeReNTe-: well..
[20:37:54] -LittleCreepyGirl-: could do what?
[20:38:13] -DiFeReNTe-: work so hard and be attorney of the state
[20:38:30] -DiFeReNTe-: but that's not important now
[20:38:35] -DiFeReNTe-: I'm about to leave
[20:39:07] -DiFeReNTe-: and U have the decision to make my afternoon a nightmare or a pleasant good remembering of this conversation
[20:39:24] -LittleCreepyGirl-: it really sucks :/ I just posted our convo into my blog and it just removed or nicks!
[20:39:52] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[20:39:58] -LittleCreepyGirl-: our*
[20:40:01] -DiFeReNTe-: try harder... try the block note
[20:40:09] -DiFeReNTe-: hey
[20:40:12] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[20:40:17] -DiFeReNTe-: I leave...
[20:40:26] -LittleCreepyGirl-: good
[20:40:30] -LittleCreepyGirl-: me too :)
[20:40:33] -DiFeReNTe-: show me ur kindness
[20:40:35] -DiFeReNTe-: show me ur kindness
[20:40:40] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I have none
[20:40:42] -DiFeReNTe-: write ur address...
[20:40:50] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[20:40:55] -DiFeReNTe-: plz
[20:41:10] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[20:41:20] -LittleCreepyGirl-: go to your stinky body ;)
[20:41:22] -DiFeReNTe-: make my day
[20:41:35] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and say hi to it from me ;)
[20:41:44] -DiFeReNTe-: i will
[20:41:49] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I even give you premission to kiss it for me ;)
[20:42:08] -DiFeReNTe-: and now give me ur addresss and i will even dance withhim
[20:42:24] -LittleCreepyGirl-: didn't I give you one already?
[20:42:25] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[20:42:42] -DiFeReNTe-: the one of the girl of billie clinton
[20:42:50] -DiFeReNTe-: but I wanted yours
[20:42:56] -DiFeReNTe-: and u knew that
[20:43:03] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[20:43:20] -LittleCreepyGirl-: can I be the girl of Billy? ;)
[20:43:48] -DiFeReNTe-: mmm... I don't know
[20:43:57] -DiFeReNTe-: but If even Monika L could...
[20:44:14] -DiFeReNTe-: Hey
[20:44:51] -DiFeReNTe-: hey, brainiac... give me ur email address or I will be reppenting on this the whole day
[20:46:15] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[20:46:29] -LittleCreepyGirl-: mlevincky@takemebill.com ;)
[20:46:40] -DiFeReNTe-: allellujah!
[20:46:50] -LittleCreepyGirl-: :p
[20:47:09] -DiFeReNTe-: awear me it's jouir and I'll start dancing like snoopy
[20:47:09] * LittleCreepyGirl rolls on the floor and keeps trears back :P
[20:47:14] -DiFeReNTe-: swear me it's jouir and I'll start dancing like snoopy
[20:47:23] -DiFeReNTe-: swear me it's youirs and I'll start dancing like snoopy
[20:47:25] -DiFeReNTe-: :D
[20:47:41] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I dont swear :P
[20:47:46] -DiFeReNTe-: cause is it's not...
[20:47:50] -DiFeReNTe-: well...
[20:47:57] -LittleCreepyGirl-: cos it is not polite ;)
[20:47:58] -DiFeReNTe-: I just wanted to be asure
[20:48:06] -DiFeReNTe-: the second part says
[20:48:15] -DiFeReNTe-: @tamemebill.com
[20:48:51] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so what :)
[20:49:05] -DiFeReNTe-: I don't now... a little weird
[20:49:09] -LittleCreepyGirl-: :P
[20:49:17] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and the first side is ok? ;)
[20:49:23] -DiFeReNTe-: could be another of ur evil tricks
[20:49:32] -DiFeReNTe-: mmm
[20:49:34] -DiFeReNTe-: NO!
[20:49:39] -DiFeReNTe-: :(
[20:49:50] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you kill me with laugh :P
[20:50:07] -DiFeReNTe-: that's healthy
[20:50:17] -LittleCreepyGirl-: to die by laugh :P
[20:50:25] -DiFeReNTe-: .... not for the cardiacs... but for most of people it is
[20:50:26] -LittleCreepyGirl-: my cheeks are in cramps!
[20:50:31] -DiFeReNTe-: ha ha
[20:50:32] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I need medical doc!
[20:51:05] -DiFeReNTe-: Ok...
[20:51:18] -DiFeReNTe-: I hope hillary or monika appreciate my art
[20:51:35] * DiFeReNTe runs dramaticlly into the rain
[20:51:53] -LittleCreepyGirl-: :)
[20:52:03] -LittleCreepyGirl-: leffa leffa :)
[20:52:11] -DiFeReNTe-: hey
[20:52:16] -DiFeReNTe-: plz
[20:52:20] -DiFeReNTe-: PLZ
[20:52:22] -DiFeReNTe-: Do
[20:52:25] -DiFeReNTe-: c'mon
[20:52:27] -DiFeReNTe-: Do
[20:52:27] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you are my king of drama ;)
[20:52:45] -DiFeReNTe-: glad u ap`preciate it
[20:52:48] -DiFeReNTe-: Hey
[20:52:50] -DiFeReNTe-: :D
[20:53:00] -LittleCreepyGirl-: next time you hopefully call yourself as dramaking when I see you ;)
[20:53:11] -DiFeReNTe-: now where will I writte u?
[20:53:27] -LittleCreepyGirl-: memoserv here?
[20:53:31] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[20:53:43] -DiFeReNTe-: only give me ur true address
[20:53:52] -DiFeReNTe-: only thing i asked u
[20:54:07] -DiFeReNTe-: no more insistence from me
[20:54:09] -LittleCreepyGirl-: http://beyondmyrainbow.blogspot.com/ ;)
[20:54:21] -DiFeReNTe-: y meand email adress...
[20:54:29] -DiFeReNTe-: don't try subterfugees
[20:54:52] -LittleCreepyGirl-: oh and how can you trust me when I give you an email now ;)
[20:55:06] -DiFeReNTe-: I just will
[20:55:20] -DiFeReNTe-: and will write there
[20:55:39] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[20:55:47] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but you wont get it ;)
[20:55:54] -LittleCreepyGirl-: give up, boy ;)
[20:56:10] -DiFeReNTe-: I'm not a giver
[20:56:23] -LittleCreepyGirl-: oh I see
[20:56:33] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you want to get just ;)
[20:56:47] -DiFeReNTe-: I don't give up
[20:56:50] -DiFeReNTe-: I just retire
[20:57:01] -LittleCreepyGirl-: hopefully soon ;)
[20:57:22] -DiFeReNTe-: as soon as u writte it
[20:57:35] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so you nvere will ;)
[20:57:43] -DiFeReNTe-: u asked me a reason and already gave u a lot
[20:58:02] -LittleCreepyGirl-: none of them didn't melt my heart ;)
[20:58:21] -DiFeReNTe-: so read
[21:00:11] -LittleCreepyGirl-: read what ;)
[21:01:35] -DiFeReNTe-: I'm not very good at this. I know there is a lot of people who have a lot of practice. But I do know how to recognize someone I could appreciate. It almost never happen. BUt right now I'm pretty convinced. Even If u r not the kind of person that gets persuaded I must try cause is what i feel should I do. It's not enough with tryig, so I ask u to trust this bolivian fella when he says he has no second intentions and only wants to get to know u
[21:02:41] -DiFeReNTe-: We have so many to say each other...
[21:05:06] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[21:05:46] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[21:05:59] -LittleCreepyGirl-: almost melted my heart ;)
[21:06:17] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I am still waiting that something what you have to say to me ;)
[21:06:38] -DiFeReNTe-: I like u
[21:06:44] -DiFeReNTe-: now u can hate me
[21:07:43] -DiFeReNTe-: (never said "i like you" before)
[21:08:12] -LittleCreepyGirl-: just a bit more and you say you have fell in love with me
[21:08:22] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and then just one step to propse me
[21:08:23] -LittleCreepyGirl-: right?
[21:08:30] -DiFeReNTe-: I'm not that kind of guy
[21:08:44] -LittleCreepyGirl-: oh! :D
[21:08:58] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I am getting intrest already indeed :P
[21:09:06] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and!
[21:09:17] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I managed add our names on blog ;)
[21:09:26] -DiFeReNTe-: ...:D
[21:09:29] -DiFeReNTe-: great
[21:10:22] -DiFeReNTe-: I knew it was to precipitated to telll u that, but may not see u again... and just let it go
[21:11:24] -DiFeReNTe-: I thought that would melt ur heart
[21:11:35] -LittleCreepyGirl-: not at all ;)
[21:12:01] -DiFeReNTe-: I spoiled that?
[21:12:01] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I would believe you more I would see you next time again ;)
[21:12:58] -DiFeReNTe-: too bad I don have a poligraph with USB connection to convince u
[21:14:35] -DiFeReNTe-: ...I just hope there's a next time
[21:14:51] -DiFeReNTe-: is the first time i see u on the irc
[21:14:59] -DiFeReNTe-: and don't enter so often...
[21:15:02] -DiFeReNTe-: well..
[21:15:21] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you havent noticed me just before :)
[21:15:28] -DiFeReNTe-: ...things don't always go out like they should...
[21:16:06] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so maybe it was not worth of any effort then ;)
[21:16:23] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and you can always read our log on my blog ;)
[21:16:56] -DiFeReNTe-: only worths if u want it to worth, "brainy"
[21:17:05] -DiFeReNTe-: make it worth
[21:17:09] -DiFeReNTe-: make my day
[21:17:19] -DiFeReNTe-: get me a smile
[21:17:46] -DiFeReNTe-: I'lll take care for u not to regret
[21:18:55] -DiFeReNTe-: It would be really fun to make u know me
[21:19:18] * LittleCreepyGirl gives a smile at you o)
[21:19:46] * LittleCreepyGirl gives a smile at you more ;;o)
[21:20:17] -DiFeReNTe-: maybe that's alll I needed
[21:20:20] -DiFeReNTe-: all i deserve
[21:20:47] -LittleCreepyGirl-: You are really a drama king ;o)
[21:21:15] -DiFeReNTe-: That's the worst part of having a poet heart
[21:21:22] -DiFeReNTe-: well
[21:21:25] -DiFeReNTe-: u r right
[21:21:31] -DiFeReNTe-: it's not that important
[21:21:48] -DiFeReNTe-: I'll focus in what nice was chatting with u
[21:22:10] -LittleCreepyGirl-: hopefully whole of it ;)
[21:22:16] -DiFeReNTe-: and that for a instant i was so close to u... as the halley comet was frome the earth once
[21:22:34] -DiFeReNTe-: but the time to leave has come
[21:22:42] -DiFeReNTe-: and ur negative prevales
[21:23:01] -DiFeReNTe-: so shall it be...
[21:23:15] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so shall it be :)
[21:23:37] -LittleCreepyGirl-: God bless your heart :)
[21:23:50] -DiFeReNTe-: which heart?
[21:24:02] -DiFeReNTe-: the one u just ripped off?
[21:24:25] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you are the doctor
[21:24:41] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you should know the beauty of outripped heart :)
[21:25:02] -DiFeReNTe-: oh... yeah... I know
[21:25:09] -DiFeReNTe-: nothing greater than loneliness
[21:25:33] -LittleCreepyGirl-: You are never alon
[21:25:41] -LittleCreepyGirl-: God is with you :)
[21:25:51] -LittleCreepyGirl-: the same God who is with me :)
[21:25:59] -DiFeReNTe-: only Him
[21:26:23] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so you are not lonely ;)
[21:26:34] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you are richest man on the world :)
[21:26:53] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[21:26:55] -DiFeReNTe-: look
[21:27:13] -DiFeReNTe-: I just wanted a group of letters from you
[21:27:26] -DiFeReNTe-: U r a good smart girl
[21:27:59] -DiFeReNTe-: nothing worths now if I didn't get that simple thing i wanted just to get u to know me
[21:28:54] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I check time to time my blog ;) there should be place you can email to me I guess
[21:29:06] -LittleCreepyGirl-: if you are really in need to do that ;)
[21:29:34] -DiFeReNTe-: I thought it was enough being myself
[21:29:53] -LittleCreepyGirl-: :)
[21:30:15] -LittleCreepyGirl-: maybe it was
[21:30:24] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but you never will get to know that ;)
[21:30:52] -DiFeReNTe-: is that a kind of psycho placebo?
[21:30:59] -DiFeReNTe-: well..
[21:31:05] -LittleCreepyGirl-: if it has the effect ;)
[21:31:22] -DiFeReNTe-: no... I'm losing no chance
[21:31:26] -DiFeReNTe-: i never had one
[21:31:55] -DiFeReNTe-: If after all this u don't trust me and u persist on ur cruel attitude it will last a long more
[21:32:27] -LittleCreepyGirl-: was it threatening? ;)
[21:32:42] -DiFeReNTe-: I will prepare for that... I have just remembered why do I stay away from people sometimes they always hurt
[21:33:03] -LittleCreepyGirl-: de javu
[21:33:16] -LittleCreepyGirl-: are you sure we havent talked before ;)
[21:33:32] -DiFeReNTe-: I would still have the trauma
[21:33:34] -LittleCreepyGirl-: someone has told me taht already ;)
[21:34:17] -DiFeReNTe-: well... good luck. i know u didn't wanted to make felel anyone bad
[21:34:26] -DiFeReNTe-: *feel
[21:34:43] -DiFeReNTe-: i'll be okay in couple of hours
[21:34:48] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I know I didnt do anyone felel bad ;)
[21:34:51] -LittleCreepyGirl-: feel*
[21:35:17] -DiFeReNTe-: I feel like poopy
[21:35:27] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you will be forgotten me in couple of hours ;)
[21:36:09] -DiFeReNTe-: never
[21:36:40] -DiFeReNTe-: so long... illusion
[21:36:50] -LittleCreepyGirl-: like an airballon
[21:37:04] -DiFeReNTe-: like 99 luftballons
[21:37:21] -LittleCreepyGirl-: *boom* and they will be gone :)
[21:37:43] -DiFeReNTe-: And I think on u and I let it go...
[21:37:47] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but still.. they were beautiful :)
[21:38:17] -DiFeReNTe-: nothing in my world is beautiful
[21:38:29] -LittleCreepyGirl-: teh memory of me will be ;)
[21:38:53] -DiFeReNTe-: will be bitter as ear cerumen
[21:39:18] -DiFeReNTe-: but... that's life
[21:39:27] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and life is a flower ;)
[21:39:32] -DiFeReNTe-: life is only a dark and lonely way to death!
[21:39:46] -LittleCreepyGirl-: death is part of life ;)
[21:39:55] -DiFeReNTe-: :|
[21:40:07] -DiFeReNTe-: mmm
[21:40:13] -DiFeReNTe-: okay
[21:40:17] -DiFeReNTe-: denigrated
[21:40:18] -DiFeReNTe-: sad
[21:40:28] -DiFeReNTe-: dissappointed
[21:40:38] -DiFeReNTe-: confussed
[21:41:15] -LittleCreepyGirl-: loved
[21:41:16] -DiFeReNTe-: humillated
[21:41:20] -LittleCreepyGirl-: happy
[21:41:32] -LittleCreepyGirl-: brightened
[21:41:37] -DiFeReNTe-: share ur happinnes then
[21:41:49] -DiFeReNTe-: please make a miracle for me
[21:41:58] -LittleCreepyGirl-: humillated??
[21:42:19] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I have done well too much already ;)
[21:42:31] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you are the firstone who got my blog ;)
[21:42:39] -DiFeReNTe-: a little bit more won't hurt, believe it
[21:42:52] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I do regret it already ;)
[21:42:59] -DiFeReNTe-: :|
[21:43:12] -DiFeReNTe-: So i regret not asking for it
[21:43:25] -DiFeReNTe-: :P
[21:43:32] -LittleCreepyGirl-: do you know what does /clearall?
[21:43:35] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[21:43:42] -DiFeReNTe-: yeah
[21:43:45] -DiFeReNTe-: a threat
[21:43:54] -LittleCreepyGirl-: have you tried it ever??
[21:43:56] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[21:44:27] -DiFeReNTe-: sounds great
[21:44:46] -DiFeReNTe-: sorry to have bottered u... in the intensity it affected u
[21:45:07] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you are forgiven, my son ;)
[21:45:15] -DiFeReNTe-: I think I insist to much, but only cause a negative is the worst beggining for a relationship
[21:45:26] -DiFeReNTe-: the WORST
[21:45:54] -DiFeReNTe-: so if u want me to take u in a horse at the midnight u must acceed for this once
[21:45:55] * LittleCreepyGirl sings: drama drama drama
[21:45:56] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[21:46:28] -LittleCreepyGirl-: are you the prince who came to save me? ;)
[21:47:06] -DiFeReNTe-: I ratter to be dead if I am not
[21:47:27] -DiFeReNTe-: :O
[21:47:38] -LittleCreepyGirl-: and you are saving me for what? ;)
[21:48:04] -DiFeReNTe-: from or for?
[21:48:47] -LittleCreepyGirl-: tell you me
[21:48:56] -DiFeReNTe-: :D
[21:49:14] -DiFeReNTe-: I want to be the person who gets to know u the most
[21:49:28] -DiFeReNTe-: and once I know what can I save u from I will
[21:49:46] -DiFeReNTe-: cause.... i like ur brains
[21:49:57] -LittleCreepyGirl-: oh yes
[21:50:12] -LittleCreepyGirl-: silence of the lamb ;)
[21:51:09] -DiFeReNTe-: let me show u something
[21:51:21] -DiFeReNTe-: could u please tell me ur real name?
[21:51:25] -LittleCreepyGirl-: So, Lector, what else you like beside my brain? ;)
[21:51:54] -DiFeReNTe-: mmm... is the only thing I can perceibe, CLarise
[21:52:28] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[21:53:00] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I need to go now
[21:53:20] -LittleCreepyGirl-: To be come closer to you
[21:54:02] -LittleCreepyGirl-: trough the sweet pain of unknowing :)
[21:54:20] -DiFeReNTe-: Hey
[21:54:34] -DiFeReNTe-: that person that appears in ur blockspot with the teddy bear
[21:54:45] -DiFeReNTe-: is...
[21:54:48] -LittleCreepyGirl-: that's a dog
[21:54:53] -LittleCreepyGirl-: :)
[21:55:00] -DiFeReNTe-: what about the blonde woman?
[21:55:09] -DiFeReNTe-: is...
[21:55:12] -DiFeReNTe-: you?
[21:56:07] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[21:57:02] -DiFeReNTe-: :D
[21:57:14] -LittleCreepyGirl-: let it be one of the thing what keeps your heart bumping red warm and sticky juice of life trough your brains ;)
[21:57:49] -DiFeReNTe-: I'd like to think that woman is you
[21:58:03] -DiFeReNTe-: cause i could tell you what i think about ur looks
[21:58:12] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you have your freedom ;)
[21:58:20] -DiFeReNTe-: is that you?
[21:58:37] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ;)
[21:58:53] -DiFeReNTe-: :)
[21:58:57] -DiFeReNTe-: is it ur pic?
[21:59:23] -DiFeReNTe-: I need to tell you my opinion
[21:59:29] -DiFeReNTe-: I could explode
[21:59:35] -DiFeReNTe-: telll me it is you
[22:01:29] * DiFeReNTe is excited for the first time in the year
[22:01:45] -LittleCreepyGirl-: what would you tell me? :)
[22:02:04] -DiFeReNTe-: cause I can't keep it
[22:02:13] -DiFeReNTe-: cause u r
[22:02:21] -DiFeReNTe-: ASTONISHING
[22:02:37] -DiFeReNTe-: engel
[22:03:11] -LittleCreepyGirl-: princess :)
[22:03:14] -LittleCreepyGirl-: of frogs
[22:03:52] -DiFeReNTe-: whatever u say... now I can go REALLY happy
[22:04:02] -DiFeReNTe-: i chatted with the girl of that photo
[22:04:10] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so I made you smile ;)
[22:04:13] -DiFeReNTe-: U r a true german
[22:04:26] -DiFeReNTe-: How good u look
[22:04:34] -DiFeReNTe-: golden hair
[22:04:46] -DiFeReNTe-: perfect...
[22:05:15] -DiFeReNTe-: now we can go in peace
[22:06:05] -LittleCreepyGirl-: will see you in paradise? ;)
[22:06:38] -DiFeReNTe-: When I get behind you... I now we'll be in paradise
[22:07:39] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I am already ;)
[22:07:47] -LittleCreepyGirl-: angel as I am
[22:08:05] -DiFeReNTe-: I still have to work a little to go up
[22:08:11] -DiFeReNTe-: willl u help me?
[22:08:19] -LittleCreepyGirl-: will wait for you ;) To continue our convo what will be splitted in any minute ;)
[22:08:47] -LittleCreepyGirl-: Buy a Bible ;)
[22:08:48] -DiFeReNTe-: :o
[22:08:54] -DiFeReNTe-: I read the bible
[22:08:56] -DiFeReNTe-: a LOT
[22:09:01] -DiFeReNTe-: my favorite one
[22:09:02] -LittleCreepyGirl-: good ;)
[22:09:09] -DiFeReNTe-: is the JOB's book
[22:09:14] -LittleCreepyGirl-: live by Bible ;)
[22:09:21] -DiFeReNTe-: I do
[22:09:25] -DiFeReNTe-: I love my enemies
[22:09:32] -LittleCreepyGirl-: then I will see you there ;)
[22:09:39] -DiFeReNTe-: couldn't keep my mind straioght without that book
[22:09:46] -DiFeReNTe-: but
[22:09:52] -DiFeReNTe-: will u marry me then?
[22:11:06] -LittleCreepyGirl-: there will be no marriages in heaven ;)
[22:11:29] -LittleCreepyGirl-: but I will be your best friend after Jesus there ;)
[22:11:42] -DiFeReNTe-: would u marry me here?
[22:12:24] -LittleCreepyGirl-: You missed the "I love you" part before proposingg ;)
[22:12:54] -LittleCreepyGirl-: show me your picture ;)
[22:13:06] -DiFeReNTe-: Sorry... always have oproblems with the protocols
[22:13:09] -DiFeReNTe-: Ehmmmmmmm
[22:13:12] -DiFeReNTe-: LEt me think
[22:13:20] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I need to add it on the blog ;)
[22:13:31] -DiFeReNTe-: I got some pics on my dad's pc
[22:13:35] -DiFeReNTe-: well... he does
[22:13:43] -LittleCreepyGirl-: so? :=
[22:13:54] -DiFeReNTe-: so... i can get them and send them to u... tomorrow when u get here
[22:14:18] -LittleCreepyGirl-: none uploaded in internet somewhere?
[22:14:23] -LittleCreepyGirl-: facebook?
[22:14:28] -LittleCreepyGirl-: myspace?
[22:14:39] -DiFeReNTe-: as hitler sould say: NEIN
[22:14:54] -LittleCreepyGirl-: hail Hitler ;)
[22:14:57] -DiFeReNTe-: but my sister has a lot of hers and she looks like me
[22:15:21] -LittleCreepyGirl-: how can she look like you? ;)
[22:15:27] -DiFeReNTe-: but tomorrow we could me the same hour as today I prepare a whole selection
[22:15:33] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I am sure she is more cuter ;)
[22:15:49] -LittleCreepyGirl-: set it up in internet ;)
[22:15:50] -DiFeReNTe-: only cause the makeup
[22:16:08] -DiFeReNTe-: yeah... u know.. progress...
[22:16:12] -LittleCreepyGirl-: have you told that to her? ;)
[22:16:24] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you are smart guy
[22:16:29] -DiFeReNTe-: that she's got my eyes?
[22:16:29] -LittleCreepyGirl-: still a doctor ;)
[22:16:40] -DiFeReNTe-: :D
[22:16:52] -LittleCreepyGirl-: that she is curter than you becasue of make up ;)
[22:17:11] -DiFeReNTe-: he he
[22:17:13] -DiFeReNTe-: ;)
[22:17:39] -DiFeReNTe-: I'll wait u tomorrow about the same hour we met today hours ago
[22:17:54] -DiFeReNTe-: gonna be thinking on u
[22:17:58] -LittleCreepyGirl-: I will be here if I do remember to be ;)
[22:18:30] -DiFeReNTe-: blue eyesē
[22:18:40] -DiFeReNTe-: :o u r a godess
[22:19:14] -LittleCreepyGirl-: that's blasphemy!
[22:19:28] -DiFeReNTe-: not in the context i meant
[22:19:40] -DiFeReNTe-: but u r right
[22:19:51] -DiFeReNTe-: luckylly inquisition is gone
[22:20:24] -LittleCreepyGirl-: go and regret your being thoughtless in front of God :)
[22:21:02] -LittleCreepyGirl-: ta taa :)
[22:21:21] -LittleCreepyGirl-: i need to add the end of the conovo on the blog ;)
[22:21:21] -DiFeReNTe-: yeah.... but no wiping today
[22:21:31] -LittleCreepyGirl-: good :)
[22:21:40] -DiFeReNTe-: I need to see ur photo again
[22:21:54] -LittleCreepyGirl-: you should never wipe yourself :)
[22:22:27] -LittleCreepyGirl-: leffa leffa